Coming from a good family, I grew up in Boston, MA in a three-decker
house. Owned by my grandparents, proud folks of the earlier years.
I was
told to learn the things that mattered to me because it would
help me to
come closer to the things that mattered to me.
At that time in my life, family was all I cared about: Mom, Dad,
Brother, Sister and God himself. Those were the things in life
I learned
were dear to me at that time. As much as I loved all these wonderful
things, life will show you something different all the time.
Church was
fine, school was good, my grades were good, but I was looking
for
something greater in my life. I picked up a Scope magazine and
saw a
picture of a Marine in blue dress. You have to see the uniform
to see
why I fell in love with it. I read the magazine further while
I was in
school, and I fell in love with the whole concept. I joined only to find out that I made the wrong choice. My mom
told me
to stay in school, but I wanted to be a man. I quickly learned
that the
choice I made would take me to higher learning. I was taught
to kill, I
was trained to do things most teens would run from. The thing
that stuck
out the most was authority. I learned not to trust those over
me in
matters of war. I learned to hate on a new level. Seventeen going
on
eighteen and learning to kill. I did my time and came home with
a few
new ideas. Some good and a lot bad.
Life on the whole took a new outlook. I came
home not trusting anyone in
authority. Worse than that, I became a crack-head, a drunk, a
pill
popper and other things. Higher learning became my worst enemy.
No one
in authority I trusted, no one that I loved I trusted, hurting
people
became first nature. Disturbing others lives became a way of
life as
long as I had my drug of choice I was happy.
If I walked over you, oh well. If I hurt you, oh well. This
Is the
nature of the beast, it cares nothing of you or others. It only
cares
about destroying, but there is a God.
Because he sent me a friend. See there comes a time when God
himself
sends a lamb to teach you that there is hope. That there is more
to
life. God himself sent a comforter to teach love and hope which
came
from Gregory Wilder and his wife.
I learned authority is a good thing to have
in life. To love and to
care, I'ts needed. Everyone that teachers me something new in
life is
sent by God himself, to show me that he's there through those
who dare
to care. To show authority, to teach to love, to make me look
up to see
I am better than I thought I was. Higher learning!
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