THE TIME THAT I’VE WASTED IS MY BIGGEST
REGRET,
SPENT IN THESE PLACES I WILL NEVER FORGET,
FEELING AND THINKING ABOUT THINGS THAT I’VE DONE,
THE CRYING, THE LAUGHING, THE HURT AND THE FUN.
NOW IT’S JUST ME AND MY HARD DRIVE GUILT,
BEHIND THESE WALLS OF EMPTINESS I ALLOWED TO BE BUILT.
I’M TRAPPED IN MY BODY JUST WANTING TO RUN,
BACK TO MY YOUTH WITH THE LAUGHTER AND FUN.
REALITY IS SUDDENLY RIGHT IN MY FACE,
SCARED AND ALONE AND STUCK IN THIS PLACE.
THE CHASE IS OVER AND THERES NO PLACE TO HIDE,
AND EVERYTHING IS GONE INCLUDING MY PRIDE.
I ASK MYSELF WHY AND WHERE I WENT WRONG,
I GUESS I WAS WEAK WHEN I HAD TO BE STRONG.
LIVING FOR THE DRUGS AND THE WINGS I HAD GROWN,
MY TRUE FEELINGS WAS AFRAID TO BE SHOWN.
NOW MEMORIES OF THE PAST FLASH THROUGH MY HEAD,
AND THE PAIN IS OBVIOUS BY THE TEARS I SHED.
THE INNOCENCE IS GONE AND THE BOY IS GROWN,
WHILE MISTAKES THAT I’VE MADE ARE PAINFULLY SHOWN.
ITS TIME THAT I CHANGE AND GET ON WITH MY LIFE,
CHASING THOSE DREAMS OF A FAMILY AND A WIFE.
BECAUSE IM TOO OLD FOR THE TIRESOME GAME
OF ACTING REAL HARD WITH NO SENSE OF SHAME.
I PORTRAY TO BE RUGGED SO FAST AND SO COOL,
THE TRUTH IS I’M LOST LIKE A BLINDED OLD FOOL.
I FORMED MY OPINION OF THE WAY THINGS SHOULD BE
AND FOUND MYSELF RUNNING AFRAID TO BE ME.
NOW I CAN FINALLY DISTINQUISH WHAT’S FAKE AND WHAT’S
REAL,
LIKE THE TEARS I SHED AND THE PAIN THAT I FEEL.
WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS I REALLY DON’T KNOW,
BUT THE YEARS THAT I’VE WASTED ARE STARTING TO SHOW.
SO I LIVE FOR THE DAY I GET MY NEW START,
WITH THE DREAMS I STILL HOLD DEEP WITHIN MY HEART.
I HOPE I CAN MAKE IT AT LEAST HAVE TO TRY,
BECAUSE I’M HEADING TOWARDS DEATH AND I DON’T
WANT TO DIE.
